Wedding Dreams that haunt...

So I am sitting here slowly trying not to go insane from planning the wedding. I think you could compare getting married to being pregnant. You feel tired, have cravings, tons of mood swings and even gain weight. Some days I feel like I can handle everything that comes my way and then others I feel totally over my head in wedding planning. I guess I am not the only bride to ever feel this way but that's the nature of the wedding beast it makes you feel like you are the only bride suffering these issues in the world. At the end of the day, after talking with multiple vendors all I want to do is just get married to the man of my dreams. Sometimes it feels like planning the wedding can really get in the way of the REAL reason you are getting married, which is to become one with your soul mate. I have been having nightmears about the wedding day. I think last nights dream was packed with the DJ playing strange music and my parents not arriving on time to see me walk down the aisle. It's like every night another dream haunts me about things that could go wrong. Steven King should write novels about weddings because they sure scare me at night. As the day gets closer I just want to be with Brad and see Brad to make it real. I have dreamed of this day happening but how to you make a dream into reality. I am afraid the whole day will go by and I will be stuck in my dream world. Bottom line I can't wait to be married. I just want to know when weddings became the event rather then the actual marriage.

Wedding Wars

So I guess I should tell you this is my personal blog about love and the relationship I am involved in. I truly believe there is nothing more mysterious and wonderful than LOVE. I am about to embark on an amazing adventure, which involves me, my soon to be husband and my little dog too. I currently live in Arizona and will be uprooted from the only city I have ever known and be placed in San Francisco. I have been to visit my future residence a few times but not enough to know if I will love it or not. My groom is going to school in the city up there and so in order to be with the love of my life I have to make some sacrifices. I have to be honest I am nervous, scared and excited all at once. I know many people would never say getting married is the wildest thing they have ever done but I truly believe it is. This is THE biggest commitment you can ever experience in life. It makes me wonder though is getting married a commitment or a simple choice? I feel better thinking I am making a choice to be in love and to live side by side with my best friend. A commitment, to me, sounds like something you are forced to take part it or an event you are obligated to attend. I just want to feel like I am not going into this blindly and I am walking with eyes wide open down the aisle that God intended me to be with. I am more than ready to start my adventure called life all I need now is a husband.